Sunday, December 30, 2012

I found the Real Rocky Mountain High by Kathryn Preston

 I found the Real Rocky Mountain High by Kathryn Preston

 One of my favorite songs that reflects my love for the woodlands is an old folk tune by Buffy Sainte Marie: “My Piney Wood Hills.” Having grown up in the Adirondack Mountains of upstate New York, and having lived in Denali National Park, AK, I am mountain born and bred and love to spend hours hiking in the woods. It is the easiest place for me to tune into my inner-voice, Spirit, the Source, etc. Buffy sings: “I'll return to the woodlands, I'll return to the snow, I'll return to the hills, and the valley below, I'll return like a poor man, or a king if God wills, but I'm on my way home to my piney wood hills.”

 Looking for new hiking territory to explore, I moved to the Roaring Fork Valley in the Colorado Rockies. The area I landed in, called the Sopris District, includes parts of the Collegiate Peaks wilderness area which contains more fourteeners than any other wilderness area in the lower contiguous 48 states. The red soil of the Rockies was something I’d never seen on the east coast, or in the midwest, but I dreamed of it prior to setting out for Colorado. Based on this dream, I wrote a poem (below) which turned out to be a foreshadowing of my journey to the Rockies. A few days after writing the poem, I saw a documentary about an Amtrak passenger train that runs through Glenwood Canyon in Colorado, and knew I had discovered my chariot to the West. The canyon scenery is nothing less than the most spectacular geologic formations. A sense of history and mystery transported me back in time as I scanned the natural architecture of the canyon. I half expected to see the ghosts of Ute elders emerge from caves to scale the canyon walls, serving as sentinels of this primal beauty. My first hike in the Rockies was filled with the scent of sage, bringing to mind memories of "smudging" (cleansing and purifying) ceremonies with indigenous peoples in Alaska and with the Lakota Sioux in South Dakota. With my mind set on communing with nature, I started up a natural staircase created by recent snowmelt. Hiking off the beaten path, near Glenwood Springs (30 minutes northwest of Aspen), it was still a bit chilly at the beginning of Spring, so I headed into the sun and higher ground (literally and metaphorically). Most of my hiking, prior to arriving in
Colorado had been done in the old foothills of the Adirondacks, in the Shenandoah Mountains of Virginia, and some in Denali National Park, AK. In these places, my hiking experiences were more overland, than straight up a mountain, as it is here in the Rockies. It’s not just hiking, as some basic climbing skills are also needed. I learned to choose each hand and foot placement very carefully because, as I found out, what often appears to be solid - is not. Halfway up the slope, I stopped to take stock of where I was in the larger scheme of things, (a good idea in life in general.) However, when I stopped mid-slope to look across the valley to enjoy the glacier-sculpted splendor, I looked down and got an immediate case of vertigo. Before it could grow, however, I quickly shifted my focus and reconnected with the soil right in front of me. I lost my footing and slid down the mountain a few feet as it was the beginning of Spring and things were still wet and muddy. When I finally got to the top of the ridge, the soil was soft, dark, rich, and pristine, rather than rocky. I wished I was wearing moccasins so I would leave a lighter tread. I had crossed a threshold into another world; somebody else's turf. There were deer and elk tracks and scat everywhere. It looked as if a whole herd had been there recently. (What if I came across of herd of elk? Would they know I was benevolent, or would I be trampled!?) I decided to follow their tracks to see where they might lead. Soon, there was CRUNCHY snow everywhere. I thought: "every critter in paradise will know I'm here with all this racket!" I decided to keep following the tracks into a ravine where there was no snow, but a lot of long grasses. Then I stopped cold. There was no sound, not even a bird or a squirrel scampering, nothing at all except for the slightest crackling noise. Was it the herd?! I bowed my head and listened acutely for the source. Following the sound, it turned out to be the tiniest babbling brook I have ever seen. It was barely a trickle of water really, but it was the most peaceful, pure sound I’d heard in a long time, and it was the only sound. With greater attention, the sound became magnified, as if I were inside it. I followed the stream to its source and thought about the fact that the sound had a source, and that the water itself had a source.

I wondered: “Do 'sources' keep rippling outward (or inward) through the universe, leading back to the original Source?”

The source of the brook was a deep hollow, filled with snow, encircled by the roots of a grandmother tree. As gravity did its thing, the most delicate, zen-like brook was created.
I'm willing to wager that the tree and the snow and the hollow did not have to negotiate an alliance in order to co-exist.
The scene seemed to embody my fondest dream for the planet: Living beings co-existing, each fulfilling his purpose, without any force or control being applied. "Imagine."

Looking at my watch, I was shocked to realize I had been hiking for four hours, but it seemed like only forty minutes.

I love that about the mountains: the Magic, the Beauty.
The mountain and I make a great pair.
We are equals. We share energy.
We give and take. It’s a good relationship.



 Dream Reality By Kathryn Preston

I escape the hullaballoo one day racing down the highway.
Fields of sunburnt daffodils seduce my senses.
I abandon the straight and narrow knowing I’ll find what I wasn’t looking for.
Relaxing into the afternoon under a surly Oak,
whimsical winds caress my hair.
Hypnotized by moody clouds, I think I see my mother’s face.
Spooked, I run.
Tearing swiftly through tangled branches,
lupine ears upturned,
 ancestral whispers strike my drums like ancient amulets,
crescendoing to chaotic climax.
Trance-like, I am transported through the crack in the universe
to another point on the continuum.
 I climb a spiral stair into the void, toward the unknown.
Emerging, I straddle the brink of two worlds.
The vista: endless, undulating:
like fragments of earthenware, sculpted by hands of ancients, strewn across time.
While red earth flows through fond fingers,
My soul’s laughter howls across a full moon.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Tree Spirit

There was a major blizzard a couple of days ago, and many trees, branches, and power lines are down.

Today, a fallen tree lay across my path, and as I bent down to inspect it, I touched the tree in empathy because it had been broken and torn down … and I swear these words popped into my head instantly … “I’m not broken. My spirit has been freed. The same is happening for you … you’ll see.”

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Druids/Paradigm Shift

Has anyone ever read a theory that says that some of the Druids at Iona Scotland actually became Christian priests in an attempt to save themselves and the old spiritual ways as much as they could by "hiding or embedding" mystical information, and themselves, within Christianity? This fascinates me.

Recently I read "Confessions of a Pagan Nun" by Kate Horsley, and I am stunned and intrigued, and yearning to go deeper!

That very moment in time, in history, where a person (in this case, a DRUID) has to make the choice to join, or become one with the very thing (institution, religion, system) that seems to be persecuting, slaughtering, ANNIHILATING his whole way of life, his whole reality, his whole belief system, in order to survive, to stay alive, all while simultaneously surrendering to "what is," to accept that the old reality, order, paradigm, or the very ground beneath you is crumbling.

What would that person have done in order to ensure not only one's own survival, but the survival of the knoanyone and ways of the Old Religion ... to ensure that All continues to evolve spiritually?

I wish there were diaries available from that time period of the Druids so that we could know exactly what was going on in the hearts and minds of the Druids as they saw the inevitability of what was coming.
I wish we could know how they prepared themselves, how they adapted, for such a megalithic change/paradigm shift ... sort of like the Native Americans who saw the "White Man" coming. Sort of like where we are today in terms of the annihilation of Nature, the very thing that sustains us.

Does anyone know of such journals?

I feel that if I could somehow know the thoughts of our forebears, know their feelings, know how they dealt with things, how they planned, how they prepared ... then perhaps I could better navigate the Death/Rebirth cycle happening currently in my life and in the larger world.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Ted Talk, Susan Cain: The power of introverts

http://www.ted.com/talks/susan_cain_the_power_of_introverts.html


Watch this video

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Proof of the Soul? Gregg Braden and The New Physics

Gregg Braden and "the new physics"
states that when you start getting into the world of subatomic particles,
Newtonian physics no longer applies.
When observing atomic particles, the observer’s focus EFFECTS that which he is attempting to observe.

The observer effect:
In Quantum Theory there is a notion that there IS no phenomenon until it is observed. This effect is known as the 'Observer Effect'. If this is true, it means that before anything can manifest in the physical universe it must first be observed. The observation cannot occur without the pre-existence of some sort of consciousness, or awareness, to do the observing.
This implies that the physical Universe is the direct result of our consciousness or awareness.
Woah.
This is often referred to as The Copenhagen Interpretation:
This interpretation is based on the work of physicist Niels Bohr and Wernes Heisenberg in 1927 at the Theoretical Physics in Copenhagen, Denmark. In other words they believed that the universe with all its atoms and electrons exists as an infinite number of overlapping possibilites. That there is no exact location of it since it can be in an infinite number of possible locations. It is not until someone observes it that the location is locked and it manifests itself.

Therefore: I believe that as soon as you earnestly start looking for proof of the soul, you create it.
Capice?

Monday, February 13, 2012

Tracy Chapman: Would You Change?

Tracy Chapman: Would You Change?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FodfkqfJrhQ
Tracy Chapman, Would You Change?
Lyrics:

If you knew that you would die today,
Saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that love can break your heart
When you're down so low you cannot fall
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

If you knew that you would be alone,
Knowing right, being wrong,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would find a truth
That brings up pain that can't be soothed
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

Are you so upright you can't be bent?
If it comes to blows are you so sure you won't be crawling?
If not for the good, why risk falling?
Why risk falling?

If everything you think you know,
Makes your life unbearable,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you'd broken every rule and vow,
And hard times come to bring you down,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would die today,
If you saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you saw the face of God and love
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?

Monday, January 23, 2012

Why the Jews (who chose not to follow Jesus) did not believe he was the Messiah

Interestingly enough, books that people have been recommending to me lately have explained something I always wondered about: why didn't the Jews (the ones who chose not to follow Christ) believe that Christ was the Messiah? According to Eric Metaxas (Everything You Always Wanted to Know About God (but were afraid to ask)), the Jews had believed the Messiah would overthrow the Romans and return them to their original Sovereignty during the throne of David. ... and (added by Jodi Piccoult, Change of Heart) the Messiah should be decidedly "HUMAN." The ancient prophecies say that the Messiah was not only to return the Jewish state to the throne of David, but that he would also raise up (resurrect) ALL the Dead (WHY ON EARTH he would WANT to do that is BEYOND my understanding right now -- Oye ve!) and usher in a time of great peace. The Christ, (a spiritual master who was not Jesus) took over the body of Jesus around age 12, and did NOT create a political/military revolt and oust the Romans ... and then he died, so that eliminated him from fulfilling the prophecy.
Ok, now I have a new level of understanding. So , THEN, my question becomes ... why did the Jews who chose to believe Jesus was the Messiah -- BELIEVE in him? I'm told this has everything to do with his resurrection. But the RESURRECTION was supposed to occur for ALL THE DEAD, according to the ancient prophecy. And if he didn't succeed in ousting the Romans or ushering in a time of Great Peace, WHY did people espouse his ways? I believe this has to do with the fact that he was attempting to reform the actual spiritual, mystical, inner transformative processes of Judaism, and THAT is what the people who ended up following him were after. (Feel free to comment, respond, add to the discussion, please, in the name of illumination.)

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Singing Spirit

Prompt from Rob Breszny's Free Will Astrology: For Gemini: "What do you think is the most pressing communiqué your future self is currently beaming your way?"
It's funny , but I once attempted to write a play about this very concept - my future wise-woman self (in the form of Baba Yaga) having a dialogue with my present self.

Although my external circumstances might seem bleak or extreme to some at the moment, I see that I am being nurtured and provided for in a way that is allowing me to go deeper into Spirit. I'm not studying formally with any institution of higher learning or even with a mystery school, but I am ravenously devouring all the books I can get my hands on regarding Gnosticism, the true origins of Christianity, Helena Blavatsky and the Theosophical Society, etc, etc. I want to know the real meaning, the real substance, behind the ritual forms - on all levels. And my future self wants me to get back to Singing (particularly songs of love). Just found out via C.W. LEADBEATER'S "Christian Gnosis" that the word "person" means: per - "through," sona - "sound." Cool. Digging into this business about "the Logos," rather than "God," is a bit confusing and rather reads like science fiction, but is fascinating nonetheless. Deeper study is required. Ciao for now!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Ice Shards Mosaic

After a recent freeze, and subsequent thaw, of my intimate inland lake, I watched and listened to a phenomenon that made me feel as though I was living inside a Zen painting. Rather than freezing like a sheer plane of glass, the shoreline had frozen in a mosaic of a thousand ice shards. As I stood still, listening, it made a soft hissing noise, not unlike the sound that rice krispies make when you pour milk on them.
With eyes closed, I swear I could hear Cinderella walking furtively on crushed glass slippers. As the wind gusted, sending waves from the open water, the ice shards collided, tinkling like glass in a wind chime. With eyes closed, I had the sense that if I were in deep-space, or if I went deep enough inside myself, this would be the sound I would hear.