Sunday, April 20, 2014

I spent Samhain in an old graveyard (and was perfectly happy).


The sun was bright and warm at 8:30a on Samhain and I could see it was going to be a beautiful day. So, when I happened upon this old graveyard on one of my adventure-walkabouts, I was quite pleased. What better place to truly get in touch with Spirit?

I love really old graveyards, the ones that are set high on a hill overlooking a town, where the gravestones reflect the lives of people who lived in the 17 and 1800s. To me, they are not creepy places at all, they do not scare me -- if anything, they make me feel quite serene and more than a little mystical. I love the fact that the Old cemeteries are not manicured, and there are these amazing old oaks, cedars, pines, and maples acting as wise old sentinels, protectors of the spirits of our loved ones who have passed on, through the veil, to the next adventure.

 At the moment, I've clearly stumbled into the old Irish/Scottish section of the graveyard, aptly clustered under the protection of a grand old druid oak, so I sit down among "my people" and commune with my dearly departed Father.

 I love that the leaves and sticks and gnarled old roots are raw and real, and there must be a hundred types of birdsong serenading me.The cardinal is obviously checking me out, as is the blue jay, and I feel that they are singing directly to me. And I do consider them my brethren, thinking of all the times I tented alone in the woods with the sounds of geese, loons, and ducks soothing me with their chatter, letting me know that I was not alone in the world, not by a long-shot. 

 The ground is patchy and scratchy, and nothing is in perfectly straight lines, its all random and wild and allowed to be free and natural. As I walk up the hill, there are several hawks gliding. I wish I could fly and glide and soar like them ... like my father in the air force in WW II. I haven't seen my father since I was eleven. He agreed to give me up for adoption and died just after I was adopted. He was the one person my heart was fully "home" in ... and I feel him here in this place, in a very deep space. I miss him beyond my ability to convey, with the grief of a small child ... but it's because of this loss that I've had to learn to "let go" and move forward no matter how great the loss or how deep the pain. I've wandered all over this country in search of a connection that (I hope with all my heart) will be as deep and as true. I love these wild old graveyards at the edge of the woods ... they make me feel like Huck Finn on a great adventure: the smell and crackle of dead, dry leaves; the scent of balsam, long grasses, and wood-burning stoves bring me to the center of my being, to my heart of hearts, to the place where I am one with everything and everyone, living simultaneously in this world and in others.


Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Earth, Wind, and Fire





While I DO think Pharrell does absolutely GENIUS work with harmonies,
(I’m just sayin’) I DO NOT LIKE music where the vocalists refer to women as "bitches" or "ho's," specifically Robin Thicke and his "Blurred Lines."
Bill Cosby created a character named “Russell” in his Fat Albert series (yes, back in the 70’s),
and when I listen to Mr. Thicke singing in “Blurred Lines,”
I find myself wanting to quote Russell:  “N.C. –  NO CLASS!”

One of the reasons I chose to write reviews in Aspen for Indie, Acoustic, Roots, Folk, and Bluegrass, and Funk musicians was because their messages were about LOVE, SOCIAL JUSTICE, FAMILY, COMMUNITY, etc.

You want to hear men sing about LOVE?
Listen to Earth, Wind and Fire, “Elements of Love: The Ballads!”  Nothing makes my spirit soar sublime (and my bootie want to boogie!) like this album - full of MAJESTY:  soul, funk, jazz, rock, and those HARMONIES – WOW!
(And not once does Phil Bailey, with his rapturous falsetto,
 EVER refer to women as bitches. Old School, Baby. R-E-S-P-E-C-T.)

Or, for those who dig “the epitome of chill,” listen to Jack Johnson
as he sings about his lady love in “Better Together:”

“There’s no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard
No song I could sing, but I can try for your heart …”

And there’s my point: he’s trying for her heart.
Call me an Old School Sister, a hopeless Romantic and all that,
but I’d rather hang out with someone that was “trying for my heart.”

Kathryn Preston July 16, 2013
Special Thanks to Ashley Neuman for the inspiration!

Friday, April 5, 2013

Life on the Lake: Part 2


                                                              (the author, tenting)


It's kind of a metaphor for my life - this wishing to be a bird. I'm always observing birds, fascinated by what makes them tick, what compels them live life the way they do, attempting to understand them from the inside out, but maintaining the subtle distance of the observer. I can experience them with my heart, but I will never really be one of the flock. Sometimes I feel this way about being human, too.

Lately, my journalistic tendencies are focused on experiencing Nature: pure, raw, wild, free. During times of hardship when I could not find a friend, Mother Nature sustained me, and now I feel as though I owe her more than just a superficial relationship. I owe it to Her to move more deeply into her embrace, to listen to her soul-songs, and to discover her intimate secrets and truths.

Listen to Woodpecker by Stephen Chapman:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQNFWqc-T9Q

Life on the Lake: Part 1

October 2012:

It's 1 a.m. and I lie alone in my tent in the woods by the lake. I've never tented alone before. In the past there was always someone camping with me or nearby. I thought I might be too scared to tent alone, deep in the woods, but I find I'm not. I have moments of  'heightened alertness,' listening to night sounds, but for the most part, I hear a constant chorus of loons, swans, ducks, and geese. My "fowl" friends are always there in the background making noise, like brothers and sisters chattering away in another room as I drift off to sleep. If they are quiet, I know it's about 2 am. Their chatter is quite comforting. I have the sense that:  I'm not really alone, life is all around me. The realization is akin to a pregnant woman knowing without a doubt that she is not  alone - not by a long-shot.

I will miss their sound when I am forced to move inside for the winter. I wish I could learn their language and communicate with them. But as hard as I try to imitate their sounds, I can only really observe. I will always be an "honorary" member of the tribe, a distant cousin -- but still kin.
                                             Birds: natural, FREE, able to just BE.
                    No politics, no ambitions, no agenda, no pretensions, just free spirits.
        How I wish I were one of them - (maybe a Hawk or an Eagle or a great horned Owl.)

Mountains by Stephen Chatman:
(music actually starts around 1:59)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53Rm3HnrEYQ

The Voice of the Rain by Stephen Chatman:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BNrngdvXroI

Friday, January 25, 2013

A PRAYER FOR FREEDOM By Kathryn Preston

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A PRAYER FOR FREEDOM By Kathryn Preston

Dear Beloved Archangel, hear my fervent prayer:

Please embolden my heart as I embark on the process of becoming as FREE as:

a Monarch touching-down lightly on the essence of Lavender;
an artic Chinook caressing the cool Alaskan tundra;
a lioness scenting her way out of captivity, returning to the sanctity of the Wild;
a lyrical Coltrane line;
the immortal voice of kd lang singing Leonard Cohen’s “Hallejlujah;”
a frisky forest-fairy whispering moss-magic-love to libidinous leprechauns;
an ecstatic artist brushing her way toward aesthetic rapture;
a serpentine seductress seeking the Mystic Rose;
Pendragon’s heirs sweeping the Scottish highlands;
a Gaelic maiden’s hearth, laden with soul-love for her Crusader;
a majestic raptor gliding on the breath of the Gods;
as FREE as I CAN POSSIBLY BE!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

I found the Real Rocky Mountain High by Kathryn Preston

 I found the Real Rocky Mountain High by Kathryn Preston

 One of my favorite songs that reflects my love for the woodlands is an old folk tune by Buffy Sainte Marie: “My Piney Wood Hills.” Having grown up in the Adirondack Mountains of upstate New York, and having lived in Denali National Park, AK, I am mountain born and bred and love to spend hours hiking in the woods. It is the easiest place for me to tune into my inner-voice, Spirit, the Source, etc. Buffy sings: “I'll return to the woodlands, I'll return to the snow, I'll return to the hills, and the valley below, I'll return like a poor man, or a king if God wills, but I'm on my way home to my piney wood hills.”

 Looking for new hiking territory to explore, I moved to the Roaring Fork Valley in the Colorado Rockies. The area I landed in, called the Sopris District, includes parts of the Collegiate Peaks wilderness area which contains more fourteeners than any other wilderness area in the lower contiguous 48 states. The red soil of the Rockies was something I’d never seen on the east coast, or in the midwest, but I dreamed of it prior to setting out for Colorado. Based on this dream, I wrote a poem (below) which turned out to be a foreshadowing of my journey to the Rockies. A few days after writing the poem, I saw a documentary about an Amtrak passenger train that runs through Glenwood Canyon in Colorado, and knew I had discovered my chariot to the West. The canyon scenery is nothing less than the most spectacular geologic formations. A sense of history and mystery transported me back in time as I scanned the natural architecture of the canyon. I half expected to see the ghosts of Ute elders emerge from caves to scale the canyon walls, serving as sentinels of this primal beauty. My first hike in the Rockies was filled with the scent of sage, bringing to mind memories of "smudging" (cleansing and purifying) ceremonies with indigenous peoples in Alaska and with the Lakota Sioux in South Dakota. With my mind set on communing with nature, I started up a natural staircase created by recent snowmelt. Hiking off the beaten path, near Glenwood Springs (30 minutes northwest of Aspen), it was still a bit chilly at the beginning of Spring, so I headed into the sun and higher ground (literally and metaphorically). Most of my hiking, prior to arriving in
Colorado had been done in the old foothills of the Adirondacks, in the Shenandoah Mountains of Virginia, and some in Denali National Park, AK. In these places, my hiking experiences were more overland, than straight up a mountain, as it is here in the Rockies. It’s not just hiking, as some basic climbing skills are also needed. I learned to choose each hand and foot placement very carefully because, as I found out, what often appears to be solid - is not. Halfway up the slope, I stopped to take stock of where I was in the larger scheme of things, (a good idea in life in general.) However, when I stopped mid-slope to look across the valley to enjoy the glacier-sculpted splendor, I looked down and got an immediate case of vertigo. Before it could grow, however, I quickly shifted my focus and reconnected with the soil right in front of me. I lost my footing and slid down the mountain a few feet as it was the beginning of Spring and things were still wet and muddy. When I finally got to the top of the ridge, the soil was soft, dark, rich, and pristine, rather than rocky. I wished I was wearing moccasins so I would leave a lighter tread. I had crossed a threshold into another world; somebody else's turf. There were deer and elk tracks and scat everywhere. It looked as if a whole herd had been there recently. (What if I came across of herd of elk? Would they know I was benevolent, or would I be trampled!?) I decided to follow their tracks to see where they might lead. Soon, there was CRUNCHY snow everywhere. I thought: "every critter in paradise will know I'm here with all this racket!" I decided to keep following the tracks into a ravine where there was no snow, but a lot of long grasses. Then I stopped cold. There was no sound, not even a bird or a squirrel scampering, nothing at all except for the slightest crackling noise. Was it the herd?! I bowed my head and listened acutely for the source. Following the sound, it turned out to be the tiniest babbling brook I have ever seen. It was barely a trickle of water really, but it was the most peaceful, pure sound I’d heard in a long time, and it was the only sound. With greater attention, the sound became magnified, as if I were inside it. I followed the stream to its source and thought about the fact that the sound had a source, and that the water itself had a source.

I wondered: “Do 'sources' keep rippling outward (or inward) through the universe, leading back to the original Source?”

The source of the brook was a deep hollow, filled with snow, encircled by the roots of a grandmother tree. As gravity did its thing, the most delicate, zen-like brook was created.
I'm willing to wager that the tree and the snow and the hollow did not have to negotiate an alliance in order to co-exist.
The scene seemed to embody my fondest dream for the planet: Living beings co-existing, each fulfilling his purpose, without any force or control being applied. "Imagine."

Looking at my watch, I was shocked to realize I had been hiking for four hours, but it seemed like only forty minutes.

I love that about the mountains: the Magic, the Beauty.
The mountain and I make a great pair.
We are equals. We share energy.
We give and take. It’s a good relationship.



 Dream Reality By Kathryn Preston

I escape the hullaballoo one day racing down the highway.
Fields of sunburnt daffodils seduce my senses.
I abandon the straight and narrow knowing I’ll find what I wasn’t looking for.
Relaxing into the afternoon under a surly Oak,
whimsical winds caress my hair.
Hypnotized by moody clouds, I think I see my mother’s face.
Spooked, I run.
Tearing swiftly through tangled branches,
lupine ears upturned,
 ancestral whispers strike my drums like ancient amulets,
crescendoing to chaotic climax.
Trance-like, I am transported through the crack in the universe
to another point on the continuum.
 I climb a spiral stair into the void, toward the unknown.
Emerging, I straddle the brink of two worlds.
The vista: endless, undulating:
like fragments of earthenware, sculpted by hands of ancients, strewn across time.
While red earth flows through fond fingers,
My soul’s laughter howls across a full moon.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Tree Spirit

There was a major blizzard a couple of days ago, and many trees, branches, and power lines are down.

Today, a fallen tree lay across my path, and as I bent down to inspect it, I touched the tree in empathy because it had been broken and torn down … and I swear these words popped into my head instantly … “I’m not broken. My spirit has been freed. The same is happening for you … you’ll see.”